January 11, 2006
Letter my Internal Editor
I wrote my morning pages this morning, and a core negative belief popped right out onto the pages! So I wrote a letter to my intertnal editor and am going to mail it as soon as I go on my Artist's Date this morning.
After yesterday's rejection, I woke up not wanting to do morning pages, not wanting to go on my Artist's Date (I was excited all day yesterday just thinking about the spinny cups) and feeling oppressed by a noxious, black, rainy cloud of negativity.
No more! That editor is going to get blasted away with my letter.
I decided that my artist date should also include purchasing sparkly glue to glue sequins onto the cover of my morning pages book. I mean if I am going to actually DO this, shouldn't my inner-artist-child get all excited?
YEAH!!!
Three pages of mental goo in an external hard drive!
I had to change this post a little bit. I am not writing this to the publisher who had to turn my proposal down. She was super nice and I totally understand where she is coming from.
In the Artist's Way, Julia Cameron discusses the inner critic who butts into positive affirmations with negativity. This is what I am addressing in my letter to the editor. As I wrote "I am a prolific and amazing artist" in my journal, my inner critic roared its angry substandard head, telling me that my art and creativity is substandard.
Yesterdays post helped this voice emerge but the word substandard came from deep within me. Time to exorcize that monster, quick!
You go girl! I'm giggling and so proud of you!
Posted by: Deborah at January 11, 2006 08:57 AMHi Melanie,
I had a look at your artwork yesterday and while your choice of topics is out of my personal taste zone (and this is not to say it's not a valid or interesting choice), I really enjoyed the way you treated the subjects. Probably the editors taste is different or s/he is to timid to try something new.
I also love the purses you have done, they are very pretty.
Karin
Posted by: Karin at January 11, 2006 09:17 AMWay to empower yourself! That's totally cool. I've always taken rejection by turning the rejectors into bad people. Probably not fair, but it's a great way to move on.
I think your stuff is fantastic. Thanks for the inspiration.
When I did TAW the last time, I found a turquoise pen with the body filled with glitter and a long turquoise feather on top! Only good thing about writing those acursed morning pages.
But your letter to the editor is perfect.
Posted by: Debra at January 11, 2006 10:39 AMo man, that letter to the editor kicked ass!! love it!!
i know what you mean about how rejection can dampen your spirits. i'm glad you've kept going. the sparkly glue is a fantastic idea. i'd love to see the finished product!
Posted by: kat at January 11, 2006 01:20 PMhey! i agree that it's so important to let all your feelings (good and bad) make themselves known. that way, you can do some serious inner critic-slaying when you need to! great work!
Posted by: daru at January 11, 2006 05:35 PMHave you seen this:
http://www.einatpeled.com/enat_pillows.html
(thought you might like it)
:o)
Posted by: April Krikke at January 11, 2006 09:35 PMShake off the ugly labels and know that you are unique and talented. I often have to remember that rejection is one way of saying "this is not a fit". That does not negate your talent at all. Keep your head up. Before you know it, your right match will come along ready to embrace your talent and singing your praises!
Posted by: kristine at January 12, 2006 12:37 AMWhat a wonderful letter - so heartfelt and so true from what I've seen of your work from your blog and gallery!!!
Posted by: Sophie at January 12, 2006 05:58 AMRock On!
Posted by: Krista- The Silent K at January 13, 2006 03:25 PMGreat letter to the editor...way to nip that censor right in the bud!
Posted by: Marilyn at January 14, 2006 07:42 PM